After about fifteen posts, I think it's about time I told you what my short film will entail, eh? I'm pretty good at elongating this process, although I've put a lot of thought and research into my sub-themes, so it's certainly worth nailing it down now and sharing the idea.
It's always been hard for me to talk about my ideas without dancing around the point (nothing new there, really). I often feel very uncomfortable and lose confidence that it will ever form into something more solid and grounding. I guess they're always quite personal and it can be rather intimidating to share it. Of course though, you fictionalise it, giving it a nice, good balance between real life and imagination.
What it boils down to, my protagonist, Barney, has to learn to face his fears. He's too scared to fight them off and is reluctant to do so because facing them means admitting that there is something wrong. For years I struggled to admit to myself that I had insecurities and woes that needed addressing, and it's still difficult. The personal aspect that the film holds to me, I suppose, makes it hard to try to discuss in this way but, at the same time, a fair few who have read my character profile on Barney could relate quite well to him, even asking me if I had based him on them.
Nobody wants to admit that they are in a bad place mentally. In the short term, it's easier to just brush them away and ignore them. In the long term, however, it begins to take its toll on us, and we take it out on other people in some form or another. What we need to realise is that we should work through it, not ignore it, because it only gets bigger then, and will take control
of us. And we end up losing everything eventually, whether it's people or our ourselves, and ultimately our mind.
Often, we either try to shut ourselves out completely, or fantasise about a more ideal
us. In this case, Barney, who takes great joy in writing short stories when he isn't too busy, imagines himself as a more confident and more in control individual. Big and in charge. He soon adopts this mental alter ego as his own little facade, but ends up highlighting a more prideful and self-centred version of his admired character to everyone else around him. The ones who know him well soon catch on and are infuriated by this as he begins to treat them poorly. Soon, they leave, forcing Barney to actually face his demons.
I'm going to be posting more research I've done to go towards this, as well as expanding on certain aspects of it, such as posting the character profiles, the beat sheet maybe, and looking into films that I want to gain inspiration from in regards to codes and conventions of its genre. Speaking of which, I'll have to go into detail about
why I chose the genres that I did.